The Origins of the “Natural Childbirth” Movement – Racism, Classism, and Sexism
This is something very hard for me to write. It is hard to write on one level because I have a physical reaction of trauma and rage when I talk about it or think about it – something which has precluded me ever talking about it much before. It is easier for me to write about having been raped and beaten by my male family members and partners than it is for me to talk about childbirth. On another level it is hard for me to write about because of the immensely negative reaction I receive to talking about such things. But this is the truth as I have experienced it from a literal gut level.
"Natural childbirth" is something we hear people talking about a lot, and often these people are feminist. Reclaiming birth from a male-controlled medical establishment idea of what it should be is a very good idea. Birth is the province of women – no matter how hard men try, pregnancy and birth is not something they can do hemselves. They can regulate it, manage it, control it – or try, but they cannot do it, know how it really feels, or ever fully comprehend what it is like in the way a woman who has given birth can know these things. But this doesn't stop them from having opinions on how women should do it, of course. They seem blind to their supreme arrogance in dictating the birth experience.
The "Natural Childbirth" movement was started by men. Men who claim the pain of childbirth is either all in our silly little heads or not really all that bad, and if we would just be good little girls and do some deep breathing techniques and other relaxation techniques, we could give birth much better and we'd realize we were just being spoiled and selfish for wanting pain relief drugs because the most important thing is the fetus/child which we are birthing and what's a little "discomfort" to that?
This is like so many other things men say and do to women. Our pain does not exist to them, or in unimportant. Premenstrual problems? All in your head! Post-partum depression? You're just lazy! Abdominal pain from "female complaints"? It can't be that bad, we don't see anything obviously wrong with you, quit complaining! Debilitating headaches? Maybe you should just relax a little, take an asprin, they can't be that bad! Denying the pain of childbirth is just another way men, particularly doctors, have of denying women's pain in general. Women's medical complaints are still met with accusations of mental illness, disbelief, a conviction that she must be exaggerating.
It disturbs me that feminism has embraced this male-originiating movement which denies women's feelings. It is true that the male dominated medical establishment has gone way too far in managing birth, to the detriment of women and babies, and to that end I think fighting routine episiotomies, unneccesary pubic shaving, and insisting that a woman lie flat on her back duiring labor are worthy and important efforts. But the litmus test now given to women is that of pain medication. Indeed, when people say "a natural birth" nowadays, they mean "one without any pain relief whatsoever." It is now a popular opinion that breathing methods are a perfectly acceptable way of dealing with the pain of childbirth, which can be horrific, ripping, tearing, cramping pain that goes on for many hours or even days, pain so intense that it has been used as a benchmark for agony for thousands of years. It is incredibly difficult these days to find a dissenting opinion to this. Women are now held to a suspiciously macho-seeming posture of talking about how they went through 12-36 hours of labor with no medication and loved every minute of it. Women who talk publically about how the pain was bad and they couldn't handle it are treated like pariahs. How could they be so selfish as to demand relief for their pain when it could have had an effect on their precious baby! As said in this excellent Salon article on the subject:
"I discovered a childbirth culture that makes women embarrassed to want pain relief — one that worships the "natural," unmedicated birth as an experience verging on the mystical… . Natural birth ceased to be merely an option and became the "right" kind of birth — a sign of true womanhood. It is taken for granted in this culture that every woman should go into labor intending to take as much pain as she can stand — and maybe more."
As she says in the same article, feminists used to agitate for women to receive pain relief during labor – now they raise the standard of the Earth Mother.
When I was pregnant, some men I knew would joke and laugh about their ex-girlfriends or wives and how they screamed during labor, how much they screamed, how long. Laughs of derision mingled with annoyance that she behaved "badly". When I went through a long recovery from a difficult birth I was insulted by men who told me in "other" countries – the country would change from time to time, or it would be Native American women, but always some non-white culture – women worked in the fields up until they dropped the baby, dropped it, and went right back to work. Men would tell me about how THEIR ex was demanding to leave the hospital a few minutes after having the baby, with obvious disdain for my not working harder. The message was clear – if a woman can't be macho and tough about giving birth, lasting 12-36 hours without so much as a Tylenol and getting up to clean the house an hour later, she is a pathetic creature not worthy of any human respect.
I think part of this denial of women's pain and the realities of childbirth comes from a particularly modern, industrialized phenomenon – many people (most?) have never witnessed a woman giving birth (a half-hour video made for the purposes of a childbirth class doesn't count.) In the 1800s, if you were a girl, by the time you were old enough to have children, chances were you'd been present at several births. You would have seen the pain and danger that giving birth entailed. You may even have seen a friend or relative die giving birth. Even if you had not been at a birth, you would have known of several women in your social circle who died having a child, maternal deaths during childbirth being very common until the advent of the same modern medical techniques the natural birth advocates so despise. Childbirth, and the knowledge that it was painful and dangerous, would not be a great mystery to you. But now, many women only see a birth if they have a very close sister or friend who invites them to theirs. I myself have never been present for any birth other than my own. I know lots of other women who have never seen anyone give birth at all. We are becoming disconnected from what giving birth means. It is an abstract concept to us, and thus, when we find ourselves pregnant, we are particularly susceptible to disinformation. The hippies, with their disdain of anything "unnatural", made the so-called natural childbirth movement popular. But its true origins are from an earlier time in history. When the concept of anesthesia use during childbirth was first presented in the mid-1800's, feminists pushed for it to become commonly accepted. They were resisted, sometimes by doctors who knew that the primitive methods of pain relief were sometimes dangerous to mother and child, and sometimes by religious fundamentalists, who liberally quoted from Genesis about how God wanted women to suffer while giving birth as a punishment for Eve's sin.
But then a man named Grantley-Dick Read wrote a book about "Natural Childbirth". Naturally, he knew women had been doing it all wrong! Women just imagined labor should be painful, he reasoned, so if they deprogram themselves, it won't hurt anymore! In other words, "it's all in your head." Sometimes, he claimed, women couldn't throw off their fears and needed drugs, but he remained adamant that the origin of pain was all in a woman's head. This is just another way of saying, if it hurts, it's YOUR OWN FAULT. Why would a male doctor become so sure he knew whether or not women truly experienced pain during labor? Why, once he attended a birth by a woman who didn't experience pain during labor. Rather than inferring that she was simply a very lucky woman, he decided to use her as an insult to all other mothers everywhere who experienced pain during labor – it was their own fault for being weak and fearful.
Or was this a disingenuous lie meant to cover his real agenda – religious fundamentalism, classim and racism? This idea of "natural childbirth" didn't originate with him, after all – it originiated with racist white European men, who were disturbed by the dropping birth rate of middle class white European women. Worried that the hordes of brown-skinned non-Christians whould take over Europe, they began promoting the idea that childbirth was naturally easy and relatively painless to any healthy, "non-neurotic" woman, and used positive stereo-types of "primitives" to bolster their position:
"Among primitive people, still natural in their habits and living under conditions which favour the healthy development of their physical organisation, labour may be characterised as short and easy, accompanied by few accidents and followed by little or no prostration… The squaws of the Madoc Indians—a tribe which has been little but affected by the advance of civilisation—suffers but an hour or even less in the agony of childbirth… two hours being the average time for North American Indians".
While it was true that "primitive" women were seen to suffer less childbirth death than "civilized" women, this was because the life of "civilized" (white) women and girls in Europe was so constrained they rarely got enough sunlight and exercise, and when combined with nutritional deficiencies, this led to rickets, which malformed the hips, causing difficult birth. And despite his theories on the more positive attitude of "primitive women", when he began to practice obstretics in South Africa, tribal women were eager for pain relief. There is little evidence that only "spoiled" Western women in industrialized countries find childbirth to be difficult and frigtening. And while being quiet during labor is valued in many cultures, this is not a way of saying there is no pain – instead, women were exhorted to bear the pain of labor as warriors – and virtually every culture had some herbal preparation to ease pain and speed labor along. Believing a woman should remain quiet during labor is not the same as denying that there is sucha thing as labor pain at all.
When I was pregnant with my son, I wanted pain relief in labor, I knew this throughout my entire pregnancy. I was poor and had little option as to where to receive prenatal care or give birth. The one hospital I could go to had a policy that they would give NO pain relief in labor except an epidural, which of course you can't have until labor is fairly far along.
At 42 weeks of pregnancy, after a month of contractions which were irregular and only had me dilated to 2 cm despite all the walking around I could stand, I developed toxemia and high blood pressure. I had no choice but to have my labor induced, or I COULD HAVE DIED. Before modern medicine, I would almost assuredly have died, and my son as well. So for this reason (as well as many others), I do not buy the idea that all medical intervention is bad.
However, the hospital labor and delivery culture is still toxic, at least for poor Southern women. I have a visceral anger towards every person at that hospital who was invovled in my labor experience, as well as the writers of books like "What to Expect When You're Expecting" for publishing outright lies in their efforts to push their natural birth agenda. I went into the hospital – they broke my water, which the book insisted would be totally painless. I was overwhelmed with the unexpected shock of the horrible stabbing sensation – no anticipation of pain there that made me imagine pain where there was none. I was not allowed so much as a drink of water – I had a blood pressure cuff on my arm, an IV drip of glucose and magnesium sulfate, I had a fetal monitor on and a heart monitor and a monitor which showed how my contractions were doing, I was catherized (except when I referred to the object as a catheter the nurse acted annoyed and said "It's a FOLEY" as if that made any practical difference to me whatsoever.) I was given Pitocin to make my irregular contractions actually DO something. I should have been given pain relief right then, because I didn't have a gradual increase of labor pains, they came on hard and fast, and instead of having a short contraction with two-five minutes in betweeen, as I'd been taught to expect by the book, I had two minute long contractions with a break of several SECONDS in between each one. This went on for SIX HOURS, during which I was mainly ignored by all hospital staff. The book told me induced labor would be a bit harder, but it didn't even hint at the possibility that it would be this bad. I felt like I was caught in a relentless machine. I was, however, quiet, concentrating on breathing to the exclusion of being able to do anything else. At one point I began convulsively dry heaving, at which point I lost my cool entirely and started screaming between heaving so strongly and contracting that I thought I wasn't going to be able to breathe aymore. This extreme distress earned me a snappy remark by the nurse, who was across the room with her back to me, filling out some sort of paperwork – "Now miss, you need to concentrate on doing some deep breathing." Then she walked out.
FInally someone came in and asked if I wanted an epidural now, to which I eagerly replied yes – only to be told five minutes later they had to wait anoter 20 minutes. Then they fiorced my husband to leave the room, and told me I had to sign a bunch of paperwork before I could get any pain relief. Now consider – that I had gone into the hospital NOT in labor – they could have had me sign the paperwork then, but they waited until I was in horrific pain and then told me to obtain any pain relief I had to sign all this paperwork. I would have signed anything – I'm not even clear on what it was I signed, I know I didn't read it all. One of them had to do with immunizing the baby after it was born – as if that couldn't have waited. My contractions were so intense I could not sign anything while I was having them – I could at most sign my name once or twice between contractions, and there were 6-8 papers to sign. After the first round of signatures, when I was again able to I started scribbling my name as fast as possible, and the nurse laughed at me for being in a hurry to obtain relief. Finally I obtained my epidural – I went from feeling like I was being crushed by each contraction to barely feeling them at all. It was amazing and miraculous, the best thing that could possibly have happened to me. I was able to doze slightly over the next few hours and gain the strength I needed to push when the time came. I did feel all of the pushing contractions too – they weren't painful though, just extremely intense. The epidural did not slow the second stage of my labor down – once I started pushing, I gave birth in about 15 minutes.
WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH THIS?
Natual birth advocates say I should have "embraced" the horrible agony that made me wish I were dead for another 5 hours, using all of my energy to simply avoid screaming. I fail to see how his would have benefitted either me or my son. The rest I got from receiving pain relief improved my well-being and thuis my son's well-being, enabling me to give birth to him quickly, which turned out to be very important as, at the end, his heart rate began dipping with each contraction. If I were exhausted from trying to be Miss Tough Birth Giver and All American Natural Woman 1996, I might not have had the energy after 11 hours of induced labor to finish the job. I would have been even better off if I'd been given some sort of pain relief or sedative earlier in labor as well. Of course, I also would have been better off if I had not been in a hospital hooked up to a million things – but I had developed a complication, one that isn't terribly uncommon in first time mothers. Is every woman who develops severe pre-eclampsia supposed to tough out a horrible birth experience to prove she is a total woman? Is this in any way a feminist position?
I am filled with anger over the horror and trauma of my birth giving experience. I have gotten a tubal ligation in order to avoid ever risking going through such a horror again. Yet I find I am not allowed to talk about how terrible it was – my pain is denied or minimized by the relentless phrase, "But you have a healthy happy baby now and THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS, ISN'T IT?" No, no, no. I am "selfish" enough to say that the child I gave birth to is NOT all that matters. MY FEELINGS MATTER TOO. I never wanted to be a martyr-hero in the delivery room. I WANTED TO NOT FEEL LIKE I WAS BEING MOCKED AND TORTURED. I didn't get that, and no patriarchy supporter cares because women don't matter in their universe, and no feminist natural birther seems to care because my real experiences screw up their ideological position. Perhaps they should consider this position, and how closely it aligns with the right-wing pro-life position that giving birth is just natural and wonderful and therefore having an abortion rather than having a child and giving it away is just pure selfishness, since pregnancy and birth are just so NATURAL. Not everything "natural" is GOOD. Death is natural and we fight death. Disease is natural and we fight disease. Unbearable pain during labor is natural, and there is no reason not to find a safe way to relieve it. If you LIKE being in agony, it is your choice, but I'm sick of the value judgements of "weak" and "selfish" that are placed on me because I think pain relief during labor is a blessing straight from heaven.
April 25, 2006 at 7:43 pm
Thinking about this, and reading that yet another person on my friend’s list is pregnant and planning on having “natural childbirth,” i am struck by the thought that the debate between women on this issue is largely if not entirely framed by the medical establishment’s total disregard for women’s complaints and experiences.
It seems like many women see “natural” childbirth as a kind of rebellion against a medical establishment that until recently kept many women doped on tranquilizers and drugged women in labor into a stupor, and still condescendingly treats women as if they don’t know anything about their own bodies.
But then, that’s kind of like women who embrace pornography and sexwork as rebellion against right-wingers who want to restrict and control women’s sexuality.
The sure sign that we have here a patriarchal anti-woman catch-22 is the fact that whatever a woman decides to do — to have painkillers during childbirth or not — she will be criticized either way.
April 25, 2006 at 10:21 pm
Hi S,
I don’t want this to be a debate between women. If some women truly feel they want to refuse any help for the pain of labor, I think that is their right to do so. But what angers me is that women are not choosing this as freely as it appears. Consider this – when is the last time you saw emotional support and approval extended to a woman who said, “I do not want to experience the pain of labor without any pain relief whatsoever – I want drugs to dull the pain, because I know it will be very intense and that frightens me.”? No emotional support is lent to her – she is mocked for being weak and even vilified for being spoiled and selfish, sometimes her worth as a mother is even questioned. Women who need pain relief during labor – which is most of them – are very quiet about it later, whereas women who have a “natural” childbirth are praised. Considering how little praise is given to women in general, and even more so, how little praise mothers get for anything the do, is it really a free, unbiased choice to have a natural childbirth?
April 30, 2006 at 9:17 am
Amananta: Thank you for this. I’ve got so many feelings after reading this, I don’t even know where to begin. I had a 48-hour long Pitocin induced delivery. I’ve felt somewhat guilty for years that no one really seems to understand how horrible, how truly traumatic it was. Oddly, since going thru that, my pain tolerance has lessoned –wore me down, rather than making me stronger.
I had no pain meds til the second day. I had so much stuff on me, in me, so many hands and montitors and catheters. I shook for hours afterwards. The pain was so bad I screamed. I was terrified. It was horrible.
This may have inspired my own post on this — seems like it would take so much energy right now to get it all down in words. There was also all the pain afterwards, which is really spoken of — vagina shredded, nipples on fire, the scariest exaustion ever.
I remember being blown away by the fact that “Women do this everyday–no ONE makes a big deal about YES–the trauma one can have from birth.”
I was also frighteningly depressed during most of my preg. No one still talks about that –depression during pregnancy.
April 30, 2006 at 3:52 pm
Kaka,
I’m very sorry that happened to you. But I understand completely your feelings. The overwhelming societal cry when women try to talk about this is “but your BABY turned out fine so IT WAS ALL WORTH IT, WASN’T IT?” Once women become mother’s, they aren’t supposed to care about themselves at all anymore. It is taken for granted a mother would go through absolutely anything, up to sacrificing her own life, for her child – this is the NORMAL STANDARD for good motherhood.
Menawhile the standard for a phenomenal dad is someone who does his fair share of childraising, or even 30-40% of it.
It’s like – good god, all we want is a little consideration during some of the most difficult hours of our lives, while we do something that, if we refused to do, would mean the end of the human race, and we are treated like selfish monsters who hate our children. What’s up with that?
May 3, 2006 at 7:57 am
Excellent, excellent post – and comments. Nothing else to add.
May 4, 2006 at 10:06 am
my idea of natural childbirth is not one that is just about being painkiller free. its about letting childbirth take its own time. its about being in a place we feel comfortable surrounded by people we love and trust. its about making our own decisions instead of having them made for us, and about learning and understanding the whole process so we can make the decisions best for each of us. its about having our other kids there with us.
i havent come into contact with the “natural childbirth movement”, but i have had one medically controlled birth under general (as well asepidural, syntocinon, all the rest), and i had my second birth at home, doctor free, with my partner and my daughter and my friend all here with me. i took it as i needed to and i screamed my way throught the last couple of hours. i never thought id get over the trauma of my first labour but taking control of my second has helped so much.
like i said, i havent encountered the “movement”, maybe its a US thing. likewise, i’ve heard about the “you must breastfeed” movement, but never encountered them. ive encountered endless pressure in the opposite direction.
this is a tricky subject. i think women should be empowered to make their own choices throughout, instead of having only two extremes.
May 4, 2006 at 10:11 am
Hi V,
That’s opretty much edxactly what I think too.
I was enraged over all the press over Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes and his insistence that she give birth in silence. How typical – a man telling a woman what she ought to do while giving birth.
May 5, 2006 at 11:14 am
either that or they take no interest whatsoever and then expect to be told how brilliant they are for ‘holding your hand’.
being a birth partner means taking part in the process of learning and supporting the expectant mother through her decision making processes. its such an underestimated position of immense responsibility.
May 29, 2006 at 4:42 am
I had a “natural” birth, but frankly don’t feel as though the ‘natural birth movement’ is the dominant cultural force coloring the conversation about childbirth in the U.S. Most mothers I know & have come in contact with have had drugs &/or interventions and have welcomed them, and don’t give it a second thought.
I feel fortunate to have received my childbirth education at a non-profit birth services organization focused on women’s needs, where the emphasis was on education about the many different options available to women during birth, and on valuing the birth experience whether it be by c-section, forceps delivery, unmedicated birth, etc.
What upsets me is that so many women go into childbirth uneducated and therefore unable to understand the risks and benefits of the options that medical professionals present to them. (And that education should certainly include a realistic picture of what childbirth pain can be like.) A woman in my mom’s group recently described her c-section, which she believes was medically unnecessary, and was based on a late-term ultrasound that suggested the baby might weight as much as 11 lbs. at full term; when she was induced her woman obstetrician told her that the baby could suffer brain damage from a vaginal birth and that she therefore needed a c-section. She consented and her daughter was delivered at 8 3/4 lbs.; the woman went on to suffer complications as a result of the surgery.
Personally, I was horrified by the thought of getting a c-section, and after research I decided the best chance of avoiding it was to try a natural birth. I knew I had a high pain tolerance and wasn’t daunted by the prospect. I also naively expected an easy labor because my mother had had me in six hours. As it turned out, I had a 30 hour labor, and a difficult recovery (though not abnormally so). But that was my choice, and I don’t pretend to think that everyone would want to do that.
I read your experiences in the hospital as the result of an uncaring and dehumanized environment, where the staff seem to have the attitude that a birth is just another procedure that has to be gotten through…but I don’t see this as related to any desire to institutionalize med-free birth. It’s just callous and wrong.
I 100% agree with you and other commenters that it is incredible how the experience of childbirth gets erased in our culture. It was for me a profound and traumatic experience that took me a year to fully come to terms with. I thought about it almost incessantly for literally the first three months after my daughter was born. And my birth was pretty normal – just long and arduous. My husband, who was with me the whole time, was so traumatized by watching what I went through that he insists that we not have another child. I wish I knew how to suggest a way of acknowledging and talking about this aspect of being a woman & mother – but so far the only way I know of is in forums like this.
June 23, 2006 at 8:53 pm
I year ya, on the one hand, but on the other, there are some things left out or missing what I would call “the point”. (For “the point” is that women are still not empowered.)
I can understand what you’re saying, and where its based, but I do have to mention at least one detail that changed a little of your argument, and you touch on it yourself: social improvements meanding public health in general. You’re correct that “civilized” women of the past were products of their evironment, much of the time with rickets (or polio) that made childbirth much more painful and dangerous (esp. coupled with spotty water supplies and no antibiotics and, in some instances, no c-section). They were suffereing from 2,3,4,5,000 of patriarchy.
But weren’t the rich, and then middle class women following the trend, being sold pain relief? Look at Queen Victoria.
However, one of the details you use to disprove the (male medical) theory that it was only “civilized” European women who needed pain releif, is your illustration of the (white) doctor who opened an ob practice in Africa to findn that of African women “were eager for pain relief” (in labor). That doesn’t surprise me one bit! African women are just as crippled by patriarchy as their European (and American I might add) counterparts! Women in Africa tend to suffer from severe genital mutilation and are often forced into early motherhood. Those things are equally havoc-wreaking as rickets.
They all stem from patriarchy. And it’s global.
Look at India: 5 year old brides is there cultural hertiage, to name just one other example on another continent.
I do believe if you don’t develop medical complications and find in the moment that you are somehow able to handle it, natural childbirth has physical advantages, incl. a cascade of hormones that are acheived by hormonal loops that include pain leading to endorphins, etc., etc., etc.. It helps you to be able to stand on your feet or find another equally physically sensible position for the pushing phase. But in the end, it has to be 100% subjective, and is therefore — obviously — up to the woman in the moment!
It’s good that modern pain relief is safe compared with, oh, say, ether or twilight anesthesia. But dont we, as a society need to do a better job at humanely supporting women no matter what their choice? And making it more practical for women who want to avoid drugs instead of turning them into a freakshow being bombarded from all directions.
Bashing women who choose (some even love?) to give birth naturally and experience the pain to come out the other side, does not further our understanding.
You know who told me “you can make it through if you just remember to breath.” ?? My mom. Was she an agent of the classist racist mysogynists? Well, there’s no doubt she was not part of the “natural” birth movement, being a generation ahead of the hippies and the furthest think you could imagine from an Earth Mama. I specifically asked her why she said that, and it was based on her experience. She did not read it somewhere. She did not take a chidlbirth class (as if – in the 50’s? not her!)
Other people describe extruciating pain beyond their worst nightmares of the belly of hell. And kudos to them for seeking the relief they need!
So you see? It’s possible for everyong to give birth without feeling guilty or ashamed, but only if we embrace each other’s experiences.
And keep in mind that obstetric procedures that you personally benefited from are as rooted in mysogyny as your claims of how the natural childbirth “movement” started — maybe more. Many modern obstetric procedures stem from ghastly butcher factories that maimed 100’s or 1,000’s of poor (often minority) women without their consent.
So — what — are we as women just screwed no matter what we do?
June 23, 2006 at 10:07 pm
“But dont we, as a society need to do a better
job at humanely supporting women no matter what their choice?”
Absolutely.
“Many modern obstetric procedures stem from ghastly butcher factories that maimed 100’s or 1,000’s of poor (often minority) women without their consent.”
Yes, and unfortunately that describes prettty much all of modern medicine.
What worries me is that when seeking a midwife, they really push not using any pain relief on women, even those who are reluctant to go through labor without it. It’s like an all or nothing proposition. Women are not allowed to be in control of their labor, not allowed to say when enough is enough or if they want to take on more, not by either side.
June 24, 2006 at 3:04 am
“What worries me is that when seeking a midwife, they really push not using any pain relief on women, even those who are reluctant to go through labor without it. It’s like an all or nothing proposition. Women are not allowed to be in control of their labor, not allowed to say when enough is enough or if they want to take on more, not by either side.”
Did you have the care of a midwife for your? What do you base that characterization on? I know at the beginning of a pregnancy, some midwives (perhaps those less skilled in good communication) might come off that way. I even acknowledge that there are probably some nazi midwives (a SMALL number), but midwives have a reason for trying to help women not need drugs. Because, if it’s possible, it is healthier. That’s not meant as a slam, but it is a measurable thruth.
My experience with midwives is that they fully support women’s CHOICES. At home those choices aren’t as available (inherent in the location b/c those choices increase risks so their only appropriate setting is in hospital). I think that might make birth midwives might seem more militant; it’s really more that they’re a product of their, what?, environment. They see more women going through raw labor and birth than even hospital midwives and way more than docs. But guess what? Their clientelle has already chosen to go drug free, so I don’t think you’re talking about home birth midwives. That leaves hospital midwives.
I know that midwives as a group are supportive of the full range of choices. Toamke it a priority to be sure they fully education their clients. And what a lot of people hate to admit is that pain relief does increase risks, and it does fail with regularity. So do a lot of people misunderstand this educational effort? Yes. So this stigma you’re perpetuating goes further to drive a wedge in womanity.
But if, as birth professionals, midwives know that some women are surprised they don’t want pain relief, some women opt for it and it fails (or arrives too late), and some women change their minds when the read about the full range of risks, isn’t it only ethical to help women to learn certain skills — just in case? I never used my lifesaving skills or cpr while lifeguarding, but it was smart for me to learn those skills before climbing up the ladder to that chair. I don’t know of midwives (again, other than maybe an extreme exception), who actually “push” not usng drugs.
And in case you’re wondering, yes, I do know a lot more midwives than the average person, through work.
June 24, 2006 at 3:20 am
“It disturbs me that feminism has embraced this male-originiating movement which denies women’s feelings. ”
I don’t believe feminists in general have embraced natural childbirth. I think the feminist movement is on the forefront of demanding painfree birth. Feminists also started the whole “formula” revolution (which remember started out as condensed milk w/karo syrup — a mixture that would be classified as child abuse if used now). Now we know that you can lower the risk of breast cancer by nursing (both for the baby girls and the mamas). Now we know that formula, even the much safer moder versions, are not nearly as good for our babies as our own milk.
So, while I understand the desire to root out the origins of things, sometimes there are strange twists and curves.
And, frankly, your whole original post comes off as you trying to justify your experience. That makes me saddest of all as another who considers herself a radical feminist.
And the more I think of your erroneous slam against midwives, the more ironic it all becomes. Midwives empower women to labor how they (the individuals giving birth) want, to push at their own time and minimzie the dehumanizing aspects of birth. Midwives take the time to know their clients (and call them clients, not patients). Midwives do not come at birth as if women’s bodies are malfunctioning (hint: that’s the whole basis of obstetrics, that women’s bodies are inherently broken and weak). Instead, midwives respect women’s bodies. It’s really sad that you’ve come to the point that you believe that midwives push natural birth. The reality is that many (most?) hopsitals have epidural quotas so they can afford to keep anesthesiologists in hour 24/7. So do you think profit quotas are a better motive?
Whether we like to admit it or not — we are all influenced by countless things all day long. And during labor we might be even more easily influenced knowing that the transition is risky and it involves our babies. So who do you really want helping the majority of women through this life transition? Huge, faceless institutions with their quotas and profits their motive, or other women who are spending more time listening to and trying to respect women’s choices?
June 24, 2006 at 3:28 am
“Natual birth advocates say I should have “embraced” the horrible agony that made me wish I were dead for another 5 hours, using all of my energy to simply avoid screaming. ”
What are you talking about? I don’t know any sane natural birth advocate that thinks you should go through that much pain without relief! Especially if you were induced. That’s what medicine is for!
It sounds like you had a terrible experience, and I hope that you are able to work through it.
P.S. I had natural births 3 times. I did a lot of yelling. Fortunately a wise woman taught me that trying to keep the vocalizations lower pitched to keep the opposing muscle bands of the uterus more relaxed so that they’re not making the smooth working muscles have to work harder. And my partner vocalized with me, so when I did start to hit the harder sections, I heard my partner’s voice, and it gently and intimately brought me back down to a less frantic, more grounded place. My point? I think it’s sad you felt you had to keep yourself from screaming, if that’s what you really felt like what you needed to do.
June 24, 2006 at 4:14 am
I’m not sure how you think I am trying to “justify” my experiences. This is real – this happened to me.
And I have known a lot of women who had midwives who claimed they were okay with pain medication and when the time came around spent a lot of time trying to talk them out of it when they asked for it, telling them to just hold out longer or whatever. You can’t put your ideology before the laboring woman’s needs, no matter what your ideology is. It isn’t right to say pain relief is always the less healthy solution. A woman too exhausted from dealing with the horrific pain of childbirth to push any longer is not doing the healthiest thing for herself.
June 25, 2006 at 3:38 pm
Please read what I wrote: that your post “SEEMS” that way. It comes off that you’re tryng to slam the natural birth movement because you experienced something completely the opposite. Criticism is not a bad thing. Think how it can help you improve your message rather then becoming carpy and defensive. Sheesh.
Your post is divisive and in denial that modern obstetrics is much more mysoginstic than midwifery. I don’t know where your friends live or what their exact circustances are, but your anecdotes are contrary to hospital midwifery that I know.
June 25, 2006 at 6:36 pm
My post is not divisive, your attitude is. Your tone is very accusatory and dismissive. You have accused me so far of: being divisive; being judgmental; being carpy; being defensive; implied I am not a real feminist because I disagree with you; and so on. All because – I was honest about my experiences and said what I learned from them. Is it any wonder I have mostly kept my mouth shut FOR TEN YEARS?! Every time I dare talk about my birth experience I am basically told to shut up because it interferes with the happy earth momma image everyone wants to believe in. I'm sick of being quiet on this. No one wants to hear from women about how horribly painful birth is, they want everyone to believe it is all a happy shiny beautiful experience and something that sums up one's "womanity". You aren't allowed to talk about anything else without intense criticism. What is so enobling about embracing pain anyway? Pain doesn't make anyone more mature, it doesn't make women love their children more, it doesn't build character. I have no problem with the idea of painless birth, and I fail to understand the attitude many natural birth proponents have that is dismissive or derogatory towards women who want a painless birth, implying they are selfish or immature. Is masochism the mark of womanhood? When there are so many options for pain relief during labor, most of which have a very low risk factor, what is so enobling about refusing them? You are fee to look upon the pain of giving birth without any pain relief as some rite of passage, but you need to realize that: if you had three children with no pain relief and feel okay about it, you were LUCKY, not just more disciplined or more educated than women who can't tolerate this; and while you may personally look on it as a rite of passage, that doesn't mean women who need pain relief and advocate for women's choice to have pain relief during labor are just somehow less enlightened and womanly than you, or less caring mothers.
September 1, 2006 at 5:34 pm
I wish I had read your post, and many other things, before experiencing birth. It’s amazing how much essential information women don’t get before it’s too late. My mother had 3 natural births and claimed it didn’t hurt that much. I now believe she must have just, physically, lucked out. And I had nothing much else to go by. I believed the stuff I had heard and read about anesthesia leading to more complications, and pain being manageable by other methods. I tried for a tub birth in a hospital with midwives. I had 28 hours of back labor. It was beyond my capacity to imagine how painful this was. Picture hell, then multiply by 7, continue for hours on end with no sleep, and maybe you can begin to approach it. Because I was making little progress after 20 hours, the midwife urged me to take Pitocin, with a Big Lie that it would not make it hurt more. I asked for pain relief and was given IV narcotic with the implication that I could have it only with the Pitocin. They could never have explicitly made this a condition, but considering the state I was in by that time, I couldn’t really think, and they sure made it seem like a package deal. They never offered me the option of epidural. The so-called pain relief did nothing to ease the pain, which multiplied by 10 or so when the Pitocin started. I begged for it to be shut off or turned down and they refused. When it came to pushing, they insisted that I get out of the tub, continued the Pitocin over my objections, stopped the pain meds, and commanded me to keep quiet, hold my breath and push while they watched the monitor. I was hooked up to everything, lying on my side while they made me pull one leg up and a nurse shoved the other one so hard I got stretch marks in the inside of my upper thigh. The pain at this point was about 200 times my previous conception of hell. It went on for an hour an a half. I shook all over and threw up between each drug-induced contraction. I thought the baby and I would both die if I didn’t get him out, and I thought my midwife was supposed to take care of me and that she knew what she was doing, so I did what they told me. When my perineum tore, I literally saw stars. It was blinding, unimaginable, unbelievable pain. The midwife called it “a tiny tear.” It is now a painful scar that prevents me from having sex. It has been way longer than we are led to expect it should take for things to be normal again, and I don’t have much hope anymore that they ever will be. My midwife advised me to use more lube. Thanks a lot.
The next Big Lie was “once it’s over, it’s over, recovery isn’t hard–at least not compared to c-section; your vagina won’t be exactly the same but will go back to almost like it was… ” etc etc. This from the childbirth classes, books, and Utter Silence toward lambs on their way to the slaughter. Perhaps they think once you’re pregnant, it’s better not to warn you?
October 10, 2006 at 6:27 pm
Hi – Thanks for an article that made me think.
I found your site through a Google search for “natural childbirth movement.” After reading your article, though, I realize that there must be (at least) two different movements at work. The one of which you speak, I must agree, is pretty appalling. The idea that anyone – male or female – could deny the actual existence of pain during labor is absurd, to say the least. Not to mention insulting.
I believe there to be another Childbirth Movement that began in the 60’s – 70’s, partially as a response to the sterilization of childbirth and lack of womens’ choice in the 50’s. This movement began with midwives like Ina May Gaskin. I do NOT associate this movement with the feminists you speak of who would shame a woman who chose pain medication during labor. I don’t believe this movement seeks to define “natural childbirth” as strictly as some might think, either. I think it seeks more to acknowlege the power of childbirth, and to empower women, through honesty and information, to make the birth-choices that are right for them. If some women have branched off of this movement and become militant, making faulty value judgements based off of a woman’s choice for what is best for her and her child, then that is very sad. And, it is upsetting that they have taken cover under the “natural childbirth movement.”
The triumph of this movement I am thinking of would be a woman feeling like she has the ability to make an informed, empowered decision for herself and her child, without being judged, and without feeling pressured one way or the other. And — you’re absolutely right — we need to think about the WOMAN giving birth, not just her child. We need to think of the woman’s needs after birth, too. You’d think that’d be obvious, I mean, she just went through something more momentus than could ever be adequately described.
It is a shame that this incredible experience, which could so bond women together has, instead, become a incredibly divisive subject. The fact is, birth is an extremely powerful, life-altering process, no matter what happens, no matter if/which drugs are used.
I also think it is a shame that you had such a horrible experience at the hospital where you gave birth. If the natural childbirth movement is what you say it is, we should start a more thoughtful one that is the Empowered Childbirth Movement.
October 10, 2006 at 6:38 pm
Sarah – I pretty much agree with you there (although “empowerment” has become such a buzzword it makes me twitchy!) The overall problem is an extended problem of the abortion wars – it is unfathomable to many people that women can or should make choices about what happens to their own bodies’ reproductive systems.
I met another woman this week who was talking about how after 48 hours of incredibly painful labor finally “gave in” and had an epidural and how she felt so guilty and was looking for reasons to convince herself she hadn’t “wimped out”. I don’t see any reason why it should be considered healthy for women to indulge in the same sort of “macho” thinking that pushes men to to so many harmful things to themselves. If a woman feels the pain of childbirth is something she wants to fully experience in an undrugged state, her wishes should be honored – and if someone doesn’t want to feel any more pain than absolutely necessary during childbirth, it should be honored to the maximum healthy extent possible, as discussed with and decided upon by her and her doctor. And everything in between, too. But what we have now is a system where the birth will be ordered according to whatever the personal philosophy of the attending doctor is, no matter how painstakingly written out a woman’s birth plan is.
October 13, 2006 at 12:11 am
I appriciate your story. I am studying to become a midwife and while I do advocate for a natural unmedicated childbirth, I also will listen to my patients and all pregnant women about what THEY want. You should be informed about all the different intervention that go along with childbirth and you (as in a pregnant lady) should be also informed about how strong you are and that you CAN GIVE BIRTH without a doc bellowing orders at you.
So thank you for reminding me that not all ladies desire a “natural” birth.
December 10, 2006 at 11:56 am
I am in my final year of studying Midwifery and have always considered myself a firm believer in Women Centered Care. I am there to ensure the labouring woman is the manager of her own birth experience, as no-one else can ever feel what she feels.
I have always tried to maintain normality in the belief that most women ‘prefer’ this, even though me myself personally had a highly medicalized birth experience through choice.
After reading your posting I am now re-thinking my beliefs. I will always remain an advocate of normal midiwfery in that midwifery skills should be able to assist a woman in recieving the birth experience she deserves. However this should never exclude a woman’s wishes of pain relief, whether that be ‘natural’ or medical.
Thank you for, if nothing else, aiding me in becoming a relfective practitioner, and hopefully one who would never treat a woman in the way you have obviously been treated in the past.
December 14, 2006 at 8:22 pm
What a wonderful, emotionally honest posting! I’m pregnant, and have been thinking ‘epidural’ right from the beginning. I’ve meet with a number of doulas who have very clearly treated me with derision for not going the fully natural route. Their attitude seemed to be that they know best, and I obviously don’t have the ‘right’ idea. I’ve also seen this same attitude on various pregnancy mailing lists. Perhaps this is a rare collection of women who — for some reason — don’t have very painful labours. It’s also my observation that a certain number of these advocates haven’t yet had children. They use scare tactics about epidurals causing more medical interventions, when in fact this isn’t necessarily the case. They also describe the ways in which babies don’t bond or nurse as well after an epidural. I know women who have had epidurals with no other medical interventions, and their babies nursed well.
While I support women who choose to go the natural route, I do wish they were all fully informed beforehand. Some are. Some are left traumatized. And for those who seem to enjoy the experience and find it meaningful, that’s great. Just don’t make it an ideology to be imposed upon women who might not have the same experience.
I fully agree that just because something is natural doesn’t mean it’s good or healthy. After all, arsenic is a perfectly natural substance. What is healthy is having choice in childbirth, and being fully informed of the ranges of pain different women might experience. And what is healthy is not being traumatized by birth, and most importantly, making choices that are best for you. Thanks for your posting!
March 24, 2007 at 7:20 pm
I’m always wary of both the medical establishments with their episiotomies and insistance on lying down and of the “giving birth is like having an orgasm and you can have sex during labour” types. They’re both awful.
June 26, 2007 at 6:41 pm
Thank you so much for this! I have felt but not been able to verbalize so well, the undercurrent of maniuplation and lies that many natural childbirth advocates use. It angers me to no end to hear their judgemental and ignorant rhetoric. I even brought this up on the debate board in my pregnancy club, and was stunned to hear the things many women passionately stated as “facts”. Some of them not having ever given birth, were ready to stake their lives on the notion that natural childbirth was somehow safer for their baby. What of complications? An article I read online stated that 25% of women who use home births end up being rushed to the hospital with them. Another study found that the risk of infant death was doubled in “natural” home births, where medical help was not immediately available.
Anyway, I don’t know how accurate those findings are but being a nursing student and having studied the risks of pain relief during labor as well as the risks of natural birthing- I would choose a medicated hospital birth every time.
I have no problem with women who choose natural birth after being completely informed, but I think that they are rarely completely informed or aware of what childbirth entails. It makes me livid that so many young first-time moms are pulled into the natural birth movement and then either traumatized by a horrendous birth experience or made to feel weak and inadequate if they “give in” and get pain medication.
Natural birth advocates also use women who have had a positive natural birth experience to advance their cause- claiming that the miraclous feelings and experiences following the birth of the child are all due to the mother being “clear-headed” and the child being alert and unaffected by drugs. They forget that childbirth is always miraculous. I had a wonderful birth experience and the epidural did not make me drowsy in the least. I could feel NOTHING from the waist down, not even pressure- yet I pushed my son out in 15 minutes of pushing. He was awake and crying and we had an hour of skin-on-skin bonding before he was wrapped just to keep him warm. We kept him in the room with us the entire time and then took our miracle home.
I’m sorry. I guess I’m just venting. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I hope it raises some awareness of the darker side of the natural birth movement.
June 26, 2007 at 6:56 pm
Ok, I realize that comment might have been a tad on the emotional/frustrated side. Haha! Like I said, I was venting. It angers me quite a bit and I’m not exactly sure why. I do think there are natural birth advocates out there who are very well-intentioned. In my experience though, even well-intentioned people can get carried away in pushing their beliefs on someone.
I plan on educating any pregnant friends and relatives to the best of my ability. I support women who want to do natural childbirth out of their own INFORMED free will. I think it is a wonderful concept.
Anyway, I said all the rest in my previous post.
July 3, 2007 at 4:21 pm
Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes!!! Thank you for this.
Shorter medical establishment: “We are the experts. Your body was designed defectively. We’ll manage from here, thank you.”
Shorter natural birth fascists: “We are the experts. Your body was designed to give birth. We’ll tell you what’s the right birth, and you should feel like a miserable failure if you choose otherwise. Either that, or you’re – and I say this with as much condescension as I can possibly muster – ‘uneducated.’ Only failures and idiots would do something other than what I did.”
Screw both of them. Strangers with axes to grind do not get to tell me about how my body was designed. I have the audacity to use my body for a lot of things that have nothing to do with procreation, some of which I actually enjoy! This makes me by all accounts a BAD woman. Like I said, screw them.
July 5, 2007 at 4:06 pm
Yes Rebekah, I am deleting your link. It seems you did not read or understand the post. You are just a pusher for the “right” way for women to give birth. You are a pusher of guilt for all women who are not able to enjoy giving birth the way you think they ought to. If that was not your intent in posting this link I apologize but I cannot see that you posted it with any intentions other than this. For one, you told me to read this before I give birth when any reading of the post would make it clear I already have and these were my experiences.
This is not a platform for you to push your views onto women of how they should be giving birth.
July 16, 2007 at 6:53 pm
You are victim blaming – end of story. I simply told my story truthfully from end to end – you tell me I am wrong and all my problems are my own fault. I deleted your guilt-inducing propganda. Do not comment here again or you will be banned.
August 24, 2007 at 5:09 pm
How well this is written. How much I agree! How sadly I too, had a horrible birth experience, twice actually. So bad I can’t even talk about them. Women are denied there feelings in labor. Women are MANAGED by men in labor, it’s such a shame. You’d think a midwife would be more understanding but sometimes they are even worse, more patronizing. The LIES, the lies that you actually got an epidural, that’s the kicker, when they lie to you as if you are too stupid to know the difference. Like if they just tell you your pain will go away it will. They act like you are making the pain up. You must be a big baby who only came here today to get stoned off the epidural, as if!
September 20, 2007 at 4:52 am
Consider this bookmarked. (My mother is of the opinion that all mothers who’ve given birth [painkillers or no] have some form of PTSD and that mothers’ groups circles going over and over birth stories is their way to process it. Sounds realistic to me.)
September 21, 2007 at 1:50 am
Your comment: “Natural birth advocates say I should have “embraced” the horrible agony” is callous and unfair.
The truth is, Natural Birth Advocates know how awful it is to have the membranes ruptured, to have a pit drip, etc. Maybe books like “what to expect when you are expecting” aren’t really where it’s at.
A true natural birth advocate, like myself, believes that each intervention leads to the increased risk of another intervention. Some women end up with a forceps delivery or C-section. Many interventions increase pain, not relieve it. I would never hope for you to have to embrace that experience, but it’s like a rolling stone, you have to keep it from starting, or it stops when it has run its course.
September 21, 2007 at 3:15 am
Like most natural birth advocates, you are unwilling to listen to the experiences of women to whom birth was difficult, agonizing, and miserable – choosing to blame it all on the medical profession. The fact of the matter is, totally natural birth results, a large amount of the time, in the death of the mother and/or the child, or permanent harm and disfigurement. It is also almost always hideously painful, being set as the standard for intense pain for many thousands of years. Pretending a little breathing exercise will make it all wonderful and happy does women who have suffered terribly a great disservice. Natural birth advocates are exactly that – advocates – for the way they think women should give birth. No matter how heart-rending the story, the only thing you people ever get out of it is “see, if she’d done it our way none of that would have happened!” You blame the victims. Your “belief” that each intervention leads to another is just that – a belief, not necessarily supported by fact. Truth is, advocates of natural birth aren’t much more than a religion, based on wishes and hopes and false assumptions. You don’t advocate women’s empowerment during birth – you advocate that women do it the way you think it should be done.
Over and over I have met women who have been shamed into denying themselves pain relief during labor as a direct result of the condescending, preachy tactics natural birth advocates use. Your movement was started by racist, misogynist men. Face up to the facts.
October 1, 2007 at 10:29 am
I know I’m getting in here kind of late, but here is my two cents.
After four children, all born naturally, three of them at home, I have found that you cannot really win no matter what you do.
I decided long before I got pregnant with my firstborn child that I would have midwife-style deliveries with minimal interventions, as long as I did not develop any problems like you did that would necessitate them. Well, I did just that, three times over, and guess what? I got the same crap for my choices that you got for yours from other people. When I had my first in a hospital with a CNM everyone told me I was being ridiculous, that first labors were always “long, hard, and fraught with complications” (yes, I had a so-called “close friend” tell me this) and that I should quit playing around with all that natural stuff and get a real doctor and an epidural. I got NO support from ANYONE, the only people who supported me were my doula and midwife and my dh; everyone else was betting that I couldn’t do it. I was about to smack the next person who gave me that knowing chuckle and the “Oh, you’ll see…” and the “don’t be a martyr, this is the 21st century, drugs were invented for a reason” speech. It got quite old.
Well, I had a great intervention-free natural childbirth with my firstborn. And honestly? I did not find it all that horrible. Not saying everyone finds it easier than expected, but really, it wasn’t any worse than what my mind had envisioned beforehand, if it makes any sense.
My next three were homebirths and I actually got less crap for those than I did for having my firstborn in the hospital with a midwife, amazingly. Although every now and then I get berated for being “so selfish” as to not have my children in a hospital and how could I “put them at risk for my own earth mother experience” @@.
It doesn’t matter what you do. Get an epidural? You’re selfish and don’t give a crap about your child. Give birth at home? You’re selfish and don’t give a crap about your child. If you had your first child by Cesarean and have to choose between a repeat C-section or a VBAC you cannot win there, either. If you have an elective repeat C-section you are just being selfish and taking the easy way out so that you can get childcare ahead of time. If you choose a VBAC, you are selfish and only care about your “earth mother” experience, don’t you know your uterus could explode and your baby could die? I guess the only way to give birth and be the ultimate selfless, “good mother” is to fly into outer space and give birth up there because apparently all earth options are horrible and you cannot win and be the totally “selfless mother” with any of them.
Really, sometimes the best thing to do is to keep your mouth shut, or if you feel you have to say anything, say “Well, that is great! I hope your child’s birth is everything you hope for!” Even if it was something you would never do yourself.
While you have dealt firsthand with being denied pain relief during labor that you wanted, I’ve had friends who had pain relief REPEATEDLY offered who expressly stated that they did not want it; my neighbor down the street, who has had just about every different kind of birth you can imagine (one vaginal, medicated, one vaginal, unmedicated, one scheduled C-section), personally liked her natural birth the best, but that is the one labor where she was treated most disrespectfully by the medical staff and had to deal with comments from her doctor about being a “martyr”. What’s it to him? He’s not the one pushing out the baby, she is.
Why can’t both sides treat the other side with respect? It is uncalled for to make derogatory comments about women who schedule C-sections or request epidurals, but then why does that crowd turn around and tell us that we are selfish for OUR decisions? That really isn’t very fair.
And as for the “who cares, all that matters is you got a healthy baby” crap, I too, get tired of that line. The mother’s health and feelings are important too. No one should have to be treated so callously and then just be expected to “get over it” on what should be a beautiful day.
December 25, 2007 at 6:38 am
Thank you for speaking out agains the horrors of forced natural birth.
I will never forget what I went through giving birth to my son sixteen years ago. I screamed so much that I ended up with a sore throat. The nurses were annoyed with my constant demands for pain relief and my husband was not very supportive. As a result of my experience I decided not to have any more children, even though I would have liked another baby. There is no reason why women should suffer just because some people think that natural is always best.
January 19, 2008 at 5:39 pm
I am coming into this waaaaaay late, but I am inspired to write. I found you through another blog run by a retired Ob/gyn Amy.
I think sometimes the competitive nature of women gets the better of us. I know with my sister, she is naturally very “competitive.” She’s the thinnest, she’s the toughest (triathelete and marathoner of course), she makes the most money, AND she had NO DRUGS BY GOD! with both her births and now she can tell her fascinating, exciting birth story where (because she didn’t allow the docs to break her water) her membranes EXPLODED coating her (now ex) husband with amniotic fluid. Wow. Beautiful…
I, on-the-other-hand, had personally decided on epidural from the beginning when I was pregnant with my first. My mother (who has given birth vaginally 6 times, cesarean once) sold me on it. She only suffered through the 1st 5 of her labors w/o meds because she didn’t have a choice (the 6th and last birth epidural was available). Well, I guess she got some kind of nitrous oxide and maybe some other narcotics which just made her dopey but didn’t really help much with the pain. None of her labors were “short” and they didn’t get “better” from her increased experience with birth. She was very honest with me about this. Just as her own mother was honest with her about labor pain (a woman who gave birth 5 times and never experienced a “short” or “easy” labor either).
My 1st pregnancy was uncomplicated, though I was a few days past due, and I got my epidural after having my water broken and at around 5 or so centimeters dilated because the hospital was having an extremely busy night and the anesthesiologist couldn’t get to me as soon as I wanted the pain relief. Going to 5 or 6 “unmedicated” was enough for me to feel like I “experienced” my son’s birth. I had enough pain that it took me a full five years to decide to have a second child! My family said nothing about me being “weak” for wanting pain relief, my husband was grateful for the epidural because he hated to see me in so much pain–the only person who had one little snarky comment was my MIL. She gave birth to my husband w/o pain meds and said she did lamaze and it wasn’t that hard–she also was in labor only for about 3 hours as opposed to TWELVE. Her comment when I talked about my pain during labor was “Oh, well you didn’t have to go through transition” implying my pain was NOTHING compared to what she “chose” to endure when giving birth to my dh. Whatever.
My 2nd pregnancy was uncomplicated (except for some problems getting pregnant in the 1st place due to my use of depo provera shots for b/c) and I chose an ob practice (5 obs partnered in practice) that could deliver me at a less busy hospital to ensure I would get that epidural just as soon as I wanted it. My labor was pretty much the same–not shorter and really not easier. The only thing that made it “better” than the 1st was that the hospital wasn’t at all busy and I could get whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. They broke my water at 3 or 4 and gave me an epidural almost immediately following. Hell, it was almost boring! My dh played gameboy or something and my mom watched tv and I napped a little. The pain “seemed” less bad before the epidural than with the 1st, probably because I knew what to expect and I felt “safe” in that I knew I would get pain relief when I wanted it, oh and of course I got the epidural a bit sooner (but not much). By the time I needed to push my poor daughter came flying out of that canal. The doc almost couldn’t get her gloves on in time! From the first birth I’d learned how to effectively push–plus I was perfectly calm and well-rested and pain free (though I had pressure), therefore able to really focus on the task.
Now (hooray!) I’m pregnant with a third due on March 11 a little less than 3 years after having my second. This is the last pregnancy and I’m excited to be “done.” Am I afraid of labor and delivery? Nope. Do I plan on going unmedicated so I can claim a place in history with all those other natural (like my sister and MIL) mothers? Hell no. Why? Why suffer through that? Why make my dh suffer watching me suffer? He loves me, he doesn’t want me to be in pain–hell he cried when I got my first tattoo because he could see I was in pain.
Do I feel less of a woman? Nope. I’m an Army staff sergeant, a pretty awesome runner, and at my fittest I can do over 50 push-ups (not the girl kind either). I’m an awesome mother, not to be thought of as “so great” but I do home school my kids and am glad to do it (and like all this it’s a personal choice etc, I’m not trying to tell other moms what to do or what could make them a “good” mother). I feel like an “empowered” woman who doesn’t need to put down other women, mothers, etc. for their life choices in order to make myself look like a “better” person than them. And ultimately, for me, the healthy babies I got at the end of my “medical” labors and the safety of an environment equipped to handle complications should they arise, is all the proof I need to choose hospital birth with docs and nurses and anesthesiologists every time.
Home birth, birthing center, hospital, they are all individual choices and it is too bad that some of us women have to feel superior, more “educated,” or more “healthy” than other women in order to feel good about ourselves. Seems like a problem of self-esteem to me, more than anything else.
Wow. Sorry for giving such a long post–but it was only because your original post was so powerful and inspiring to me. Thanks for sharing and allowing the forum for others to share.
January 19, 2008 at 5:48 pm
OH shoot. One more thing, my first born was born with meconium in the water–so being at the hospital with a NICU and experienced doc was a really good thing, if his passages hadn’t been sucked out as well as they had been by the doc and NICU, etc., he would’ve gotten respiratory disease and probably would’ve been stuck at the hospital w/ intravenous antibiotics and possibly a vent. And, of course, he could have died. Not a good situation to have if you are in the “comfort” of your own home.
January 22, 2008 at 1:21 am
Your article is well thought out and your point is well taken. I wonder, however, if you have considered that many women who seek to go through a “natural pregnancy” and “natural birth” do so for religious reasons. Such convictions sometimes stem from a worldview that is often foreign to our own western ideals–a worldview which does not label pain as necessarily bad.
Granted, many of the powers which have and do exert force within the religious community (especially in the Catholic Christian and Muslim communities) stem from male-created policies which sometimes function to control women, but this does not preclude the fact that many women see natural birth as empowering and deeply religious.
As a man, I will never know the pain of childbirth, and if I ever do father children, I will support my partner in carrying them to term (or not) and delivering them in any way she believes is truest to her self. By writing off her will and convictions, whether they lead to natural birth or to the use of anesthetics, I would be doing the very thing men have been doing to women all along–denying her ability to choose for herself. To say that all women who use natural birth have had the “wool pulled over their eyes” by men who do not understand their pain is profoundly disrespectful to those women who have searched themselves and decided to undergo that pain nonetheless.
January 22, 2008 at 2:24 am
Trevor – I am not sure what you are getting at. I am not a man.
February 27, 2008 at 4:39 pm
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April 25, 2008 at 3:10 am
Bravo! Finally a like minded mother. I agree wholeheartedly! I am going on my 4th child in a few days and am not looking for an “I did it natural” trophy, just a baby and my sanity when its over. I have a midwife, but she is pushinng her natural agenda and when I mention that I want an epidural, for the first time out of 4 children, she brushes me off and says Ill do fine!
I am going to go in now, knowing what I want this time and showing her the door if she keeps pushing this idea on me and making me feel guilty fr actually not wanting to endure excruciating mind bending pain!
Good article, get it into a magazine…It is really a great work!
Take care!
June 13, 2008 at 7:50 pm
Our organisation is a uk based registered charity that supports women who have had traumatic experiences of childbirth. Many, many women feel like this and there is a need for a real social change so that women are respected – and respect each other – whether they choose natural childbirth, epidurals, elective caesareans or whatever. There really is a social change happening and the cruelty that was inflicted on you, Amananta, will only change if eloquent, articulate people like you keep shouting the message. You are right to be appalled, shocked, horrified and angry about what happened. It is a social evil and internationally we need to change it for future generations.